“Today's movie quote: "Crazy, am I? We'll see whether I'm crazy or not!"
I'm using the voicepost today mainly because I'm too lazy to type. I haven't done a voice post in a *long* time - I've really done very few at all, actually. Little has changed in my end of the world, little ever does. I saw my shrink Tuesday. We spent most of the day talking about nothing. Or most of the hour talking about nothing. My therapy has degenerated into conversation. I saw my psychiatrist the day after that. He simply continued my medications unchanged. At the moment I'm feeling better than I have for a while: I'm a bit more alert, a bit more able to write, a bit more able to simply think. It's a good thing, probably.
Thursday I spent with my son Joe. He and I basically went mall-crawling. I had some petty shopping to do. It was an excuse for he and I to do some time, spend the day together. We haven't done that in a year. He just graduated from Basic Training. He's National Guard. He's in the Chemical Corps. I'm very proud of that particular choice that he made. It's a hazardous specialty. I think it suits his personality well. It's kind of techie, and I'm very proud of him for making it through the Basic Training. I think it's a good thing the's done. I think he'll do well. We had sushi at a restaurant called Osaka in Columbia, Missouri. It was good but not impressive. The service was poor. We pretty much got lost - dropped through the cracks somewhere - had to wait a very long time to eat. Apart from that, the food was alright. After lunch, we took in a movie. We saw "Nacho Libre" I recommend to anyone that you allow somebody else to spend money renting this for you. Time spent on this movie is a great enough loss without compunding things by spending money. It's time you'll never get back. I'm disappointed that Jack Black has failed so completely in this one. I like Jack Black. I kept thinking throughout the movie that at any minute it would start getting funny, but it never did. It has a few moments, you'll see most of them in the previews. Just, in a word, disappointing.
My writing these days is in an odd place. I have the urge to write and I am composing things in my head, but they never make the transition to paper or to disc or whatever. They never get written. I guess I'm still blocked after a fashion.
For those of you on the edge of the seat to know how I'm sleeping, it's still a problem. I'm using a c-pat (?) machine these days. A c-pat machine is basically similar to strapping a hair dryer to your nose and taping your mouth shut. I'm not sure why this is supposed to be a good thing. I'm not becoming accustomed to this as I was assured I would. I find it such an effor to exhale that sleep doesn't really enter the equation, and when I finally take the machine off after an hour of futility, I find that I'm so fully awake that I don't get much sleep for the rest of the night. My plan is to berate my doctor and the company that supplied this device, until I understand what's going on. I can't believe I'm not doing something wrong. It's just inconceivable to me that the way this is currently working that anyone uses this this way and finds it beneficial. I just feel like I don't understand what I'm supposed to be doing.
I really wish I had something to add. There's really nothing exciting going on in my life at the moment. Today's movie quote was from the original Frankenstein, the 1931 version. I wish you all well!
(I think the background music was from The Goldberg Variations, J.S. Bach)”