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nanowrimo 2010


Diary of a Blind Madman

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Today's Movie Quote: "Don't you just take the past, and put it in a room in the basement, and lock the door and never go in there? That's what I do."

         I went to the ER yesterday. No good purpose was served. I saw a couple of doctors who gave me ativan (lorazepam) and told me it was a muscle relaxer. Lying sacks of shit. It was no more than an anti-anxiety drug. As I lay there semi-sleepy and still twitching madly three people came in in turn to tell me I looked much better now. Of course, they then said I could go home. In other words, I was not treated.

         The twitching and such is back sufficiently badly that I'm thinking of going back to the ER in spite of the fact that they seem to have no idea what to do. It would be safer than being home alone. I am going to have to get a look at my medical records. Someone has put an "ignore unless bleeding" note in there.


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Hi Louderback -- sorry to hear about your problems. . . as I was reading your post, I had a thought, it is strange, but it kept coming back to me, so I thought I'd go ahead and share. You say you are twitching? Ask your body parts that if they could talk what would they tell you. --- Then listen for the answers -- maybe write down your impressions. I know is sounds really strange -- and I'm not even sure why I'm even posting this-- but there you are. -- KyneWynn

Interestingly enough, I have used that technique before (successfully) in autohypnosis. Giving the parts of one's personality antropomorhic shapes so that they can sit around and discuss a problem you want to fix (such as breaking a habit) works well for many... has worked for me on occasion. Doing the same with parts of the body is not a stretch.

I'll give it a try and let you know. It's not at all an outlandish idea.

My dad was on Adivan near the end because is lungs would just twich for no reason and make him cough. It worked... My guess is they just gave you a low dosage because that drug can fuck around with your head very badly. You probably should go see some one aboutthe twitching. It sucks to hear they didn't even treat you... Any ideas what's causing the twitching?

I have always assumed the twitching to be diabetic neuropathy. The increase is inexplecable to me. I theorize a pinched nerve or some such in my back (have always had low back trouble).

Ativan is often administered for a number of reasons. It has a calming effect beneficial in a number of instances. It has no specific indications for nerve pain nor muscle contraction problems.

I have 2 friends w/ Epolepse (sp?), and my impression is that there are drugs that have been proven to work in some cases, so the docs just sort of perscribe stuff that's worked for other people... sort of shooting from the hip. It seems they dont' have much knowledge of the disease, but just perscribe stuff that's worked before for other people. Also, getting enough food and sleep is a big help for some patiants. I really wish they know more so they could say, "You twitching is beause of x so I'll perscribe y to treat it." The twitching might be something like stress or some nervous psychological thing... but then, I dont' know... I'm not a doctor, and the wine I drank seems to be rather potent. LOL So good luck... I really wish this didn't come down to luck... *sighs* Modern medicine is pretty damn amazing, but then it has limits, and having a condition they just don't /get/ sucks ass. *hugs*

Hey Karl.. I totally can sympathize. I have been taken to the hospital before and they just gave me some adivan and sent me home... and now whenever I go in I feel as though they do not care to treat me. I do not know what it is. It is not like it is my fault they can't find out what is wrong. Anyways I hope that things start to get better for you. Thinking about you often.


They did what I expect the ER to do...react incompetently. I swear, it's only good if you're having a heart attack or stroke, but other than that...ugh.

Last year, when I was sick, couldn't breathe very well, and felt like I was having some type of anaphalactic attack (which I've had before), basically, I was ignored, and sent home. My doctor was livid. At very least they should have given me a breathing treatment.

You might be better served at an urgent care facility. They tend to be better as per my experience.

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time of it. *sigh*

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