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nanowrimo 2010


Diary of a Blind Madman

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And crawling on this planet's face, some insects called the human race. Lost in time. And lost in sp
nanowrimo 2010
And crawling on this planet's face, some insects called the human race. Lost in time. And lost in space... and meaning.

My session

with the shrinkologist went as it always does. I enjoyed to conversation, and by the time I got home I found myself in a pissed off mood. I wish I knew why that happens. I really like George, think we would have been friends in other circumstances, etc. blah blah blah. Why does visiting him piss me off?

I went shopping

at the local Lowe's store. I priced a lot of things I will never buy and, of course, neglected to check on the things I might actually acquire. I am going to do some landscaping this year (very minor) and will also be re-doing three bedrooms that are afflicted with hideous wallpaper. I don't know why.

Evil Genius

proceeds apace. I suspect it is going to turn out to be one of those games I can play only on the easiest levels, though. I am beginning to get into harder territory and the demands on my vision are increasing.

I have resolved

to attempt (again in one case) the two "100" challenges on LJ. I will attempt to write 100poems and 100stories. Whatever the community requirements I am going to do it in the following fashion. I will write one poem per day for 100 days. No getting ahead, no catching up from behind. One per day. If it goes well, I will attempt the story challenge before I finish the poems — on the same terms.

My mood

is a problem lately. I am in a bad mood most of the time. I find myself easily pissed off by people. Or television. Or newspaper articles. I cry easily. An episode of Charmed my sister was watching brought me to tears. Usually it makes me gag. Something is wrong.

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yeah well anyeway. I wonder if something is happening to u energy wise... maybe meditate or do some other metaphysical type thing.

I love the fact that you can identify my quotes!

I don't know what is happening. Something physical is wrong and something mental/emotional. I need a strong change of pace, I think.

You're a hotdong....

You're quotes are from Rocky Horror, so u know... some one's going to recognise them.

I really wish I had some sound medical advice to give u, but I don't. *hugs* And docters are rarely much help.

Why does visiting him piss me off?

I used to have a similar reaction to "talk therapy."

It felt more or less OK while I was doing it, but ultimately, it really riled me up. All the nasty frustrations and bad perspectives that I talked about just didn't go away, and, for the most part, they just didn't change.

Seems like every time I get the urge to "talk to a professional," that's how it ends up. Group cognitive therapy was the only thing that ever helped me.

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