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Diary of a Blind Madman

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Things are not looking up
nanowrimo 2010

I had a genuinely crappy night last night. I woke often, dreamed incomprehensibly, and perspired profusely. All things considered, I'd have done better awake. At least there would have been a chance to do something productive. :) Who am I kidding? :)

I don't remember my dreams of last night so there is no chance to record them. I have begun to dream more frequently and more vividly in the last two weeks. No medicine changes, but I have been eating poorly. Spaghetti, burritos, bratwurst, and various indigestibles have featured heavily in my diet. <sigh>I suppose I need to start behaving myself.</sigh> I feel like Scrooge, blaming my nightly troubles on a "bit of undigested gruel". Still, there's some validity to it. Who hasn't over-eaten and suffered a nightmare as a consequence. I wonder why my dreams are always so surreal.

In Puppy News, things are going well. Nickkie has learned to use the doggy door with a minimum of coaxing. She is not really independent in using it as yet, but has done so on her own on a couple of occasions. Jirel in the meantime has taken to emptying my trash can while I sleep. She loves to chew Kleenex. I have tried to make it clear that Kleenex are "bad" but unless I can catch her in the act, I think it may be futile.

Transportation has become a problem for me. My sister's car is down and neither of us can afford to fix it. Insurance is expired/about to expire and so she is de jure grounded if not de facto. I am back to taking the handi-wheels bus to my appointments.

I may have fewer appointments in future. I think my "safety net" is winding down now. My doctors (two of them) have not updated my short term disability despite phone calls from me. That means my eligibility will be cancelled soon if not already. Paychecks will stop and I will eventually be unemployed (both de facto and de jure). I'll have to find some way not to lose the house. Disability does not seem to be an option with all my doctors hedging their bets. I will soon lack the resources to make another round of the same or even different doctors. As I understand things, if I don't get my Social Security Disability, my company long term disability is automatically disallowed. Maybe once I am unemployed I can qualify for food stamps. I don't know if I can get welfare or unemployment at any point. It probably won't be enough to pay the mortgage.

My but that was dreary. More later.

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I recommend getting a social security lawyer that gets the most clients. Here in Minnesota, it is Midwest Disability Services. They are so good, that 95% of their clients win. Unfortunately, they aren't authorized to practice in Missouri. GOOD LUCK!!!!

If your doctors don't support a claim of disability, it becomes a lot harder to fight to be put on disability. What I believe is going to help me is that my friend filled out a form that pretty much made me a shoo in. I have bipolar 1 with hallucinations.

Welfare usually doesn't cover mortgage payments. Maybe you can get people to rent rooms from you with kitchen/livingroom room priviledges? Just a thought. I don't know what the landlord laws are there. Here, if you rent to more than one person (one rent payment) you have to get a license. I think it is stupid, but that is the law. Minnesota is considered the best place for welfare and our welfare won't enough to make mortage payments let alone anyother payments. It barely covers food. And if one has a newer car worth $2,000 (maybe even less) one does not qualify for welfare! Go figure! I live where there is no bus. How do they expect me to find a job and work if I have no way of getting there? Congress is so stupid!

Lastly, I want to thank you for joining boglinwritin! I eagerly await your post or challenges there!

I'm working with such a lawer. It is now a matter of wading through the bureaucracy and getting my doctors to line up on my side.

GoodLuck and may the Lord give you the favor you need to win!!!

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