May 23rd, 2004

nanowrimo 2010

(no subject)

I am tired. I don't really know what to do about it. I keep trying to keep regular hours. I exercise, I walk the dog. I eat right (well reasonably well). I take my medicine and I pretend I give a shit about going on with every day. How come it ain't workin'?

I probably won't be able to keep my DSL beyond early April. I can probably keep a phone line after that, but I will be going back to a 56k modem. I don't do much online anyway. Finances continue to plague me. I turned on the air conditioning this week. I had intended to forego it altogether this year, but it was intolerable to sit in 100% humidity and 85f degrees - indoors. I can't pay the utility bills now. I suppose I'll lose it sometimes in April. The mortgage is paid until the end of July. It takes three months of non-payment for them to foreclose and another 30 days after that so I'm ok until November. O Joy. I can be homeless just in time for Xmas.

I've been working a lot on my web site. I am treating it as a legacy of sorts. When I'm offline and disconnected, it will still be there until next year. I am trying to put as much of me online as I can so I can feel like somebody somewhere knows me.