April 11th, 2003

nanowrimo 2010

I dunno

This has been a rough week in many ways. I've been home since Monday. I've done a lot of paperwork, I've made some phone calls. I talked to a neurologist, a lawyer, and today a psychologist.

I've been home before for extended periods. I've always been working, though, toward going back to work as soon as possible. Even when I first lost my vision I spent all my time going to the doctor and learning how to cope with my vision. This is the first time I've ever been home without a plan for getting back into the workforce. I'm really at a major loss as to what I should be doing.

I guess my mission for the foreseeable future is to get my disability.

I feel like I've given up.

I don't want to do nothing, but I absolutely don't want to go back to work. It has been almost of a year of futility and frustration. I am making myself miserable by trying to do what I've always done. I don't know how to deal with the whole thing, but I am going to go somewhere with it.

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